10 Ways in Managing Loneliness in a Different Approach

Happy Haruhi

Making Life Interesting ala Haruhi Suzumiya

Loneliness is something that has spread all over the world today. We might not usually notice it but it doesn’t mean it is not present around us. Heck, we don’t really know the effects of loneliness when it has reach its terminal stage already. However, there are always ways to fight loneliness, it is never incurable.

1. Avoid Thinking Sad Thoughts– I know it’s hard to understand but it’s like this, the more you think of bad stuff, the more you will feel bad. Manage your thoughts and focus everything to the things that makes you happy. It is better to watch comedies than spend your time crying over listening to sad music. If you’ve just broken up with your lover, it is better to spend your time with your friends being happy rather than locking yourself up in your room feeling sorry for yourself. Remember, you have only yourself to rely on!

2. Do the Things you want for Yourself– if you’re the girl who have not receive flowers yet or you just want or need someone to send you inspiring messages in your cellphone, then go ahead and send them to yourself. You really can’t call it insanity if it makes you feel better then why not! Try to list all the things you want to do and one by one do them. Stop crying and do something for a change. And don’t ever try to think of the person that hurt you! Pull your pants up, roll your sleeves and focus your mind to beautiful things, your friends perhaps, your mother, your siblings whom you haven’t had time to play with, your pets who long for you. Share yourself to the people who truly need you.

3. Travel to a new Place don’t be fooled by what I said, by a new place I mean somewhere you have neglected to see the beauty of. It can be your back yard whom you’re too busy to appreciate the flowers blooming or the leaves falling from the trees. Breathe some fresh air, see people and for once think of the world and its wonders. Don’t think of those petty stuff that will let you down. Spread your wings and gaze at the clouds. They are beautiful aren’t they? By then, you will realize you’re not alone. Even if you lock yourself up in your room the whole day feeling all lonely and depressed, you’ll be surprise to realize your not, when you spot a cockroach crawling in your bed or a mosquito trying to steal your blood. Wherever you will go, you will never be alone. This is a fact! So stop saying your alone because no matter how much you’ll think about it, you’ll never be on your own

4. Eating Sweets is a Good Idea– actually, I think everyone knows already that chocolates has some chemicals in it that releases endorphins in our body right, and that will make us feel better. But really, you’ll also feel so much better if you can just get hold of those sweets. Ice creams, chocolates, candies, gummy bears, gummy worms, bubble gum, lollipops and oh so many many more. Their sweet tastes have enough strength to pull anyone out of misery and drag us to cloud nine, well even for awhile. Forget those calories and fats, if you want you can run around your neighborhood after though.

5. Shake your booty in Dancing– after you have eaten all those sweets, try to dance. Release your sadness on a hip beat that you like and just let go of yourself. Dance anywhere you like, alone or with some people, as long as you can move that body of yours it is fine. Dance like you haven’t dance before, dance like it is your last, dance like no one is watching and dance till your dizzy. Just dance, even if you don’t know how, even if you’re a bad dancer, even if it is your first time. Set your body free and your soul will follow.

6. Laugh– be happy, enjoy everything even if your alone, you can always watch comedies or go out with your friends, I know this is bad but if you need to slightly drink some beer go ahead, just laugh. It will make you feel better; it will not only make you happy inside and out it will unlock your trapped soul. It will lighten your burden and it is a good way to heal yourself. Even if you know your hurt, when you laugh specially if you share it with your close friends, it will untie that knot of despair in your heart and then you can breathe again. As well as when you laugh, you will realize how good it is to live and then you will think of not giving up.

7. Cry your heart out and Let go of the Pain– go ahead cry and cry and then do some more crying in front of your friends or with your mother, heck I don’t care who or what just let go of that pain, and the only way you can do that is share it. Share it with some pen and paper and then burn or share it in your diary or talk about it someone you really trust. Don’t worry if you have to act all vulnerable, you need it. Once it is out, it can never go back again. If ever it does, you don’t have to worry because by then you’ll be immune to it, and it can never pull you down for you have anchored yourself already.

8. Sleep– A good sleep is always better. After all that crying and dancing give your body a break and doze off for awhile. Bite your pillow before going to sleep and say to it “take my loneliness and lock them inside your fluffy body”. Then go ahead and sleep. When you finally wake up you’ll feel much better. And then, your ready to face anything that comes in your way.

9. Read Inspiring Stories– instead of wasting your time reading stories of lovers breaking up, stories of people dying or watching movies of the world ending. Abolish those nonsense things and read stories that will inspire you. Fill your life with inspiring thoughts. Read about people overcoming tragedy or coping up with a loss, if they have done it then there is no reason for you not to achieve what they have overcome. At this point of your life, it pays well to think positively, even if those negative thoughts still attacks you, fight them back with good thoughts or support yourself with uplifting quotes. In this moment of your life, think yourself as someone still learning to ride a bike, you need those training wheels in order for you to finally ride the bike on your own. Those training wheels are there to support you and they are your positive thoughts. The bike here is your loneliness. Once you can control your loneliness already those positive thoughts will always be there to be your foundation. Make them sturdy so that no matter how many earthquakes will pass, its intensity will hardly affect you.

10. Stay Strong– even if you think your weak, be strong. Make yourself believe that your strong and I’m sure you will survive. Never let mundane things direct you, rise up and manage them. Loneliness is a part of living, it is not here to put us on a test, to judge our strength or even drag us to hell. Loneliness, sadness and sorrow exist because it allows us to grow. It a key ingredient for us to live our lives, so don’t treat as an enemy you have to extinguish, welcome it and make it your friend. Don’t forget that victory is always compose of 2 steps backward and 3 steps forward.

Vengeance v/s Forgiveness

Once a upon a time there was a girl betrayed and murdered by the people she thought was her neighbors, in the same place where she was born and was abandoned by the person who vowed to protect her no matter what. Her eyes bled as the first soil rained into her pale skin. Her once brown beautiful eyes changed into the color of her blood as she cried and pleaded to the man she loved to save her. She laid there in her grave as she stared at the light from the surface diminished and the sound of silence started to echo in the tomb she shared with her beloved mother and father. By then, even when she was about to breathe the last bit of air inside her darkened grave, her heart never stopped yelling for vengeance and even when she was about to succumb to death, the deafening cry of her vengeful heart never seized to pound her weakened chest.

Four hundred years had already passed and the world has already changed yet her vengeful heart never even once stopped crying for revenge, it might have already calmed down but its tears never seized flowing from its veins.

This is the story of Enma Ai before she was turned into Hell Girl. The once beautiful young innocent girl is now at the fore front of ferrying souls into the depths of Hell.

But even if she already buried the souls of those who sentenced her to death into the core of the underworld, her howl for vengeance still echoed inside her until she secured that everyone of those who caused her pain and robbed her of her very own life is ferried into hell.

However, this girl of whom was made immortal by the Hell God and was able to linger here in on Earth for more than four hundred years never did once saw in her very own eyes the true form of forgiveness. She might have known its shadows but she was unable to see what is it was like to forgive.


After her emotions took over her and she was able to break free from the grave her own villagers made for her in the foot of the temple; she didn’t waste time in burning down each house that cause her to suffer. She didn’t hesitate in obliterating all the villagers that had forsaken her. As the moon shines at the empty sky, she danced in insanity as each house got caught in her flames, imprisoning those sleeping inside it, making their home their own grave as well. It may sound ironic but the girl they just buried alive in the grave they dug themselves is now the one burning them in their own grave conjured by her own flames.

Nevertheless, even if she was at the forefront of avenging suffering souls and revenge for her is all that matters, when the light of forgiveness finally made its apparition to her, she truly understood it even at first glimpse. She immediately realized the hidden beauty of forgiveness compared to the instant comforts of revenge.

The girl who was beaten down and killed by the people who were supposed to support her and protect her as one of their kind,  forgave them at the moment she knew what is forgiveness. It might have taken her hundreds of years to see it personally and fully understand it but no one can blame her poor soul for she never got the chance to know about it, for all she knew then is to inflict as much pain as those that cause her great sorrow.

But through it all, when she saw what is was like to forgive, she let go of everything that burdened her and for once she soared along with petals of the cherry blossom. She realized that she is trying to escape a prison cell where the door was never locked. She made her own self suffer in the thought of escape in the prison she, herself made. She exhausted everything she had looking for a way to get out when door was never closed in the first place.

This my friends, are the truth of forgiveness and revenge. When we seek someone to suffer as much as we did, we unknowingly and painstakingly cut our own wings with our bare hands in the thought that we could never fly again. Revenge will always be sweet but it will always have its bitter side of which will last much longer than the sweetness it promised.

Forgiveness on the other hand, is like climbing a mountain. Getting to the top requires sweat and determination yet the splendor and fortune it offers is something that will last for all eternity. The price we get when we forgive far exceeds the capital we use to achieve it.

Those who plot the destruction of others often perish in the attempt: Thomas Moore

The Tale of the Three Trees

Three Trees

Tales of the The Three Trees

Once upon a mountain top, three little trees stood and dreamed of what they wanted to become when they grew up. The first little tree looked up at the stars and said: “I want to hold treasure. I want to be covered with gold and filled with precious stones. I’ll be the most beautiful treasure chest in the world!” The second little tree looked out at the small stream trickling by on its way to the ocean. “I want to be traveling mighty waters and carrying powerful kings. I’ll be the strongest ship in the world!” The third little tree looked down into the valley below where busy men and women worked in a busy town. “I don’t want to leave the mountain top at all. I want to grow so tall that when people stop to look at me, they’ll raise their eyes to heaven and think of God. I will be the tallest tree in the world.”

Years passed and the little trees grew tall. One day three woodcutters climbed the mountain. The first woodcutter looked at the first tree and said, “This tree is beautiful. It is perfect for me.” With a swoop of his shining ax, the first tree fell. “Now I shall be made into a beautiful chest, I shall hold wonderful treasure!” the first tree said. The second woodcutter looked at the second tree and said, “This tree is strong. It is perfect for me.” With a swoop of his shining ax, the second tree fell. “Now I shall sail mighty waters!” thought the second tree. “I shall be a strong ship for mighty kings!” The third tree felt her heart sink when the last woodcutter looked her way. She stood straight and tall and pointed bravely to heaven. But the woodcutter never even looked up. “Any kind of tree will do for me.” He muttered. With a swoop of his shining ax the third tree fell.
The first tree rejoiced when the woodcutter brought her to a carpenter’s shop. But the carpenter fashioned the tree into a feed box for animals. The once beautiful tree was not covered with gold or with treasure. She was coated with sawdust and filled with hay for hungry farm animals. The second tree smiled when the woodcutter took her to a shipyard, but no mighty ship was made that day. Instead, the once strong tree was hammered and sawed into a simple fishing boat. She was too small and too weak to sail to an ocean, or even a river. Instead she was taken to a little lake. The third tree was confused when the woodcutter cut her into strong beams and left her in a lumberyard. “What happened?” The once tall tree wondered. “All I ever wanted was to stay on the mountain top and point to God…”
Many, many days and nights passed. The three trees nearly forgot their dreams. But one night, golden starlight poured over the first tree as a young woman placed her newborn baby in the feed box. “I wish I could make a cradle for him,” her husband whispered. The mother squeezed his hand and smiled as the starlight shone on the smooth and the sturdy wood. “This manger is beautiful,” she said. And suddenly the first tree knew he was holding the greatest treasure in the world.
One evening a tired traveler and his friends crowded into the old fishing boat. The traveler fell asleep as the second tree quietly sailed out into the lake. Soon a thundering and thrashing storm arose. The little tree shuddered. She knew she did not have the strength to carry so many passengers safely through the wind and the rain. The tired man awakened. He stood up, stretched out his hand and said, “Peace.” The storm stopped as quickly as it had begun. And suddenly the second tree knew he was carrying the King of heaven and earth.
One Friday morning, the third tree was startled when her beams were yanked from the forgotten woodpile. She flinched as she was carried through an angry jeering crowd. She shuddered when soldiers nailed a man’s hands to her. She felt ugly and harsh and cruel. But on Sunday morning, when the sun rose and the earth trembled with joy beneath her, the third tree knew that God’s love had changed everything. It had made the third tree strong. And every time people thought of the third tree, they would think of God.
That was better than being the tallest tree in the world.
So the next time you feel down because you didn’t get what you want, just sit tight and be happy because God is thinking of something better to give you.
Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.
I first read this story when I was on my first year of college. I decided to share this because this helped me cope up with everything I have to dealt as I entered into college and I didn’t get what I was hoping for. All my disappointments, frustrations and sorrows started to suffocate that breathing feels like a punishment from the heavens. I held this paper, read this story over and over again just to feel good and for once I could live my life and accept everything as it is as well as forget about my depression. This really helped me a lot and I hope anyone who could read this would feel enlightened too.

Introvert Truths

"the swing"

all by myself

Usually when people encounter the word introvert the first thing that sinks into their minds are the thoughts of the person being shy, timid and loner. However, what they’re seeing are only the outer shell of an introvert person. If people just try to research what the word introvert truly means they will notice that in psychology it means “a person characterized by concern primarily with his or her own thoughts and feelings”. In truth, an introvert is not someone who is weak, frail or shy; an introvert is just a kind of person who values  his or her own thoughts more than what other people thinks. Isn’t that sometimes what we should do?

Nowadays, being an introveris really hard, people try to look down on you, other people thinks that because your not popular they can just push you around and because you don’t talk much it means you are a coward.
In reality, introverts think a lot and if given the chance they can exhaust you of all the ideas they have, of all the facts they store in their heads and all the amazing ideas they can generate. Actually, according to psychology.suite101.com, introverts are not afraid of exposing what they think, they are just cautious about revealing their thoughts. They don’t really hesitate to speak out or take action for themselves but they tend to think it through first. Introverts are very private people; they tend to process their feelings, information, and remarks internally. Introverts can also be social but they don’t reveal much about themselves to other people than what extraverts do.

Why Introverts prefer to be alone?

Though we all know introverts love to be alone because they are very private people, there is also another reason why introverts prefer seclusion rather than inclusion. It is because Introverts gather their energy in solitude. After a party or a social event, though introverts might really have fun in it, at the end of the day, it exhausts them a lot, being in a crowded place just drains their energy big time and the only way to get it back is to do things in private. I think it is safe to say that privacy is something introverts can’t live without. If all people need some privacy, introverts really need all the private time they got. Though sometimes, they still go to parties and go out with their friends, they only do it because they feel obliged about it.

Why introverts don’t talk much?

As what I said above they don’t like to reveal much about themselves and talking to people is also a means of revealing yourself to them (one way or another). Nonetheless, introverts don’t talk a lot also because they usually are picky of the topics they want to talk about. They typically choose those topics they know they have something to say, or those they are interested in or those topics they think is significant to talk about. If given a choice sometimes, introverts would just sit and listen rather than talk because for them it is meaningful to learn about things than to argue about trivial stuff.

Is it hard to date an Introvert?

I won’t call it hard but compared to dating an extravert it might take more time. An extrovert loves to be around people and they don’t have problems in trusting people. It’s a different story when it comes to an introvert. Most introverts have problems when it comes to socializing as well as trusting people and it might also take some time before an introvert starts to open up to someone he or she is only starting to get to know.

Answer true or false to the following questions:

1. I like to have long, uninterrupted periods to work on projects, rather than small chunks.
2. I sometimes rehearse things before speaking, occasionally writing notes to myself.
3. I like to listen more than talk.
4. People sometimes think I’m quiet, mysterious, aloof or calm.
5. I usually need to think before I respond or speak.
6. I like to share special occasions with just one or two people, rather than have a big celebration.
7. I tend to notice details many people don’t see.
8. If two people have just had an argument, I feel the tension in the air.
9. If I say I’ll do something, I almost always do it.
10. I feel anxious if I have a deadline or pressure.
11. I can zone out if too much is going on.
12. I like to watch an activity for awhile before joining in.
13. I form lasting relationships.
14. I don’t like to interrupt others; I don’t like to be interrupted.
15. When I take in lots of information, it takes me awhile to sort it out.
16. I don’t like overstimulating environments.
17. I sometimes have strong reactions to smells, tastes, foods, weather, and noise.
18. I am creative and/or imaginative.
19. I feel drained after social situations, even when I enjoy myself.
20. I prefer to be introduced rather than having to introduce others.
21. I often feel uncomfortable in new surroundings.
22. I can become grouchy if I’m around people or activities for too long.
23. I often dread returning phone calls.
24. I like people to come to my home, but I don’t like them to stay a long time.
25. I find my mind sometimes goes blank when I meet people or when I am asked to speak unexpectedly.
26. I talk slowly or have gaps in my words, especially if I’m tired or if I’m trying to think and speak at once.
27. I don’t’ think of casual friends as acquaintances.
28. I feel as if I can’t show other people my ideas until they’re fully formulated.
29. Other people may surprise me by thinking I’m smarter than I am.
Finding the answer to this test for introverts is easy: simply add up your “true” responses.

Scoring:

20-29 “true” – responses means you’re a true introvert! (That’s me!). “Only deep relationships measure up as friendships and you use them to relax. You need to mentally rest throughout the day, even after enjoyable activities. Because you will draw a blank under pressure, prepare for meetings, talks, and even parties beforehand. Accept your nature and learn to politely fend off energy-draining people.”
10-19 “true” – responses means you’re both introverted and extroverted. “You sometimes feel torn between the desire to dance in the streets and walk alone on the beach. Notice this, so you can keep your energy consistent. You judge yourself through your thoughts and feelings, and through others, leaving you with a broad view that is sometimes difficult to straddle.”
1-9 “true” – responses means you’re an extrovert. “You relish variety, have lots of ‘close, personal’ friends and will chat with complete strangers. Your stimulation is all external, so you talk, think, and act quickly. As you reach midlife, however, you may need to take a break from the high life to reflect, even though it goes against your nature.”
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Must Watch Anime Movie of all Time!

I have been watching a lot of anime movies this past few days so I have laid down what I think must be a must see movies for anime fanatics. This is solely based on my opinion alone but I also researched about the movie a little before watching them. I also made this so that fans like you won’t troubled in looking and searching for movies that might suit your taste because honestly it is not easy finding for an anime movie in the genre you like because you have to take in a lot of consideration; well, that’s if you’re really picky though.

1.)              Princess Mononoke

[Fantasy, forest deities, adventure, blooming romance as well as great fight scenes]

You wouldn’t be called a real anime fanatic if haven’t watch this Hayao Miyazaki film about the environment and the adverse effects of human progress upon the creatures that lives in the forest.  Don’t get me wrong this isn’t a boring nature film that usually would come into your mind. Its fights scene are great and the story line is awesome. You have it all here, romance, and fantasy and if you like a little bit of violence, there are also great fight scenes.

It really deserves to be in the first place because you can’t only watch a great and one of a kind movie, you will also learn to value mother earth. This is a must watch for kids, so that in an early age they will know the significance of the environment.

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2.)     Howl’s Moving Castle

[Magic, witches, sorceress, war, family, romance, adventure, family]

This is a spectacular anime movie made by Japan’s Studio Ghibli Animation. The movie is about a female hatter who belittle herself until she was force to embark on a quest to break the curs that a bad witch inflicted on her, this quest lead her to selflessly committing herself on helping a troubled yet very handsome cursed sorcerer.

This anime doesn’t only have a great theme but the quality of the animation is amazing too, in addition to that the visual effects are unbelievable and the scenes in the film are truly captivating. You just can’t resist falling in love.

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3.)  Spirited Away

[witches, dragons, adventure, magic, fantasy, family, friendship]

This is a Hayao Miyazaki film about a little girl’s journey in an unknown land and her quest to free her parents from an evil witch’s curse and imprisonment as well as helping an old friend regain his true identity back.

This is not your usual youth oriented anime movie because it will take you deep in a world very unfamiliar for all of us. This is the very first Hayao Miyazaki film I have ever watched.

The animation is superb and the artwork is magnificent. The scenes are very vivid and the visuals lived up to Miyazaki’s reputation.

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4.) Whisper of the Heart

[school, slice of life, romance, self discovery]

Of all Miyazaki’s film that I have currently watched, this maybe is the most unique of them all. Though the film doesn’t have the usual fantasy and magical genre, it contained the most inspiring story I have ever watched.

I highly suggest this for everyone to watch so that you will be inspired and motivated to pursue your passion. The romance drama of the film will teach the youths of today of what is the real effect of finding true love in a person.

This is a must watch for all the budding writers and artist of any generation for this will be of much help for you. Same goes to anime fans out there. I am aware that anime fanatics have a limitless imagination as well as undiscovered potentials just waiting to found.

I consider this film a timeless classic no one should dare to miss.

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5.) Bonds – Naruto Shippuden

[Ninja, fantasy, friendship, war, drama]

I really love this movie, and I think this ought to be on my top 5. However, in order to appreciate this movie you need to watch the Naruto and Naruto Shippuden series. Over all the animation is great too and as well as the story, music, and visual effects. By far, of all Naruto movies released to date, this one really touched my heart.

The story revolves on the bond of a student and a master will develop as time goes by. As well as the part where Naruto still believes in a friend who forsakes him made me shed a bunch of tears.

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It’s Election Once Again

The Rally

The Filipinoes Usual Howl of Justice

It is the time of the year again

when my family will wear a big grin.
My father will fake a smile,
as my mother’s wallet will have some dime.

So many white people at this of a year
who will become miraculously generous and dear.
They will stretch their soft white hands
and once again touch our dirty and muddy palms.

For us who sleep under a starry night,
it is one answered prayer for all our thousands plights.
For once, we are treated like we matter
and they become our servants and we are their master.

They will tell us that they will always care
and promise that they will always be there.
Like brothers and sisters our kinds will become
forever united and bonded as one.

But when this time of a year will pass
we realize nothing they said will last.
They will scour back to their towering castles,
while we are left fighting for our country’s battle.

The pact of brotherhood as they said
will always stay a secret word they can only understand,
and not a word they will truly show.
For until now, it remained a word my kind doesn’t know.

Like cinderella, who changed back at twelve,
becoming a princess and turning back to a maid.
From masters, we too went back to our true forms,
digging the earth and eating dirt like worms.

Those people who exclaimed they cared
ran away from us and disappeared.
Those people who were kind and vowed to be there,
left us alone, bewildered and in despair.

The ones we thought could bring vendication
are the ones now tarnishing our nation.
The people who should lead us to prosperity
are now the ones leading criminals in a killing spree.

‘Tis election once again in my country
all my people are getting ready
to inject morphine in their body
so the agony wont affect our sanity

But this my friend is not the end of it all
time will come when they will kneel and crawl.
For those on top will meet their demise,

as the sovereignty’s power shall rise.

Shattered Sanctuary

This pas few months was very tough on me and no one knew about except me. I suffered a lot this year for all the new stuff that happened to me; I thought I was ready for this big changes, I thought I was prepared to let go and jump start to a new life but when I was actually there, i felt lost and alone. It grew to a point that I barely could trust anyone anymore.

Moving away from the place I called home, ripped my soul to pieces. The places I gotten used to seeing that I cant see anymore made me so depressed, that stepping one foot away from our apartment, takes so much energy out of me. However, the worst part of it is leaving the people I have spent a lifetime with. The people who knew me inside and out,  those who were there when I was crying, those who defended and protected me, those who I treasured the most. I didnt want it for sure, but i don’t have a choice, I’m going to college and they are the ones i have to sacrifice in achieving my dreams. I knew this was going to happen, I prepared myself for it mentally; and when I thought i was ready to let go of them and find new people to surround myself with. My heart kept pounding my chest and started to look for the familiar faces, I have fallen in love. I didn’t know it hurts soo much, the pain was too big for me to handle, I started to let go of reality and relied on online games to take my disappointments and frustrations away. I depended on it to take me back to a place full of wonder where I was strong and powerful.

When I started escaping reality, I also started to let go my dreams, my plans in life and most specially myself. I really don’t want it anymore but its the only thing that masks the real pain I still feel inside. Its like my cushion in a place I’m alienated too. If I could just go back to my home and heal myself, give time for me to actually say good bye, maybe..just maybe I could actually move on. By then maybe I could be actually strong enough to face the waves of changes and not try to escape from it.

And yet, I know it will take time for me to go home because our place is here now, I don’t have a house to keep me safe there anymore. However, I am sure soon I will go home. I wont be whole till I go back to the place that sheltered me for a very long time.