We all know that having sex is normal and conceiving a baby is typical for any woman. But how come, if these two words be put together can spell out disaster? How can having a baby lead to a ruined life, a chaotic family, heart breaks, depression and then ultimately murder and sometimes suicide comes right after.

Having a baby is supposed to be a blessing, a gift; it is a miracle of nature for an ordinary woman containing life inside her. Conceiving a child is magic at work for any living thing. What I consider tragic is someone who could not produce a baby, that my friend is pure malice. Nonetheless, I can’t understand why creating life is treated like a catastrophe. People push a pregnant woman on the edge of cliff just because she has a baby, what the hell is that?

The Church and the society, they keep saying no to abortion, but you know what ALL OF YOU ARE HYPROCRITES! You keep instigating abortion as a bad thing and keep saying having a baby is a consecration yet you doomed an unmarried woman like she’s a whore or a slut. It’s not your business if she enjoys having sex, it is normal to have sex whether or not you’re married or whether or not you are of age. No one has the right to tell someone when he or she should engage in sex, it is their choice.

I can’t blame women to have abortion heck I sympathize with them, the real culprit and murderer here is not the woman nor the abortionist, it is the people the surrounds her, instead of helping her, they pushed her to the ground like some used rug, instead of supporting her, they endlessly back stabbed her and instead of being happy for the life she is carrying, they shunned her, they made her an outcast, they relentlessly spit on her face.

I will ask you, why the hell would you do this to someone who is vulnerable, someone who is carrying the most precious thing of all, someone who is carrying a human inside her, why?

WHY CAN’T YOU JUST BE HAPPY FOR SOMEONE WHO IS PREGNANT, WHETHER OR NOT SHE IS MARRIED!

The church keeps saying no to abortion but why is it that there are CHRISTIAN SCHOOLS out there that will expel their female students if they get pregnant and not get married. Is having a child without a husband a crime so bad, you really need to expel them? The woman is working her ass off in school to have a better future, not for herself but for her family; she is going to be pregnant sooner or later, why can’t she get pregnant while she is studying, what’s the difference about that huh?? The administrators in the school are actually not thinking of the sacred sacraments or heck being a good Christian Institution most of all not even the welfare of the students; all their thoughts are focused on what other people will think about them. They care more about what people think about them, than the students who are studying and paying their damn tuition fees. What they are doing on that child is both immoral and injustice. They should ponder on this.

Next step, parents.

This is the most sensitive of all.

I know being a parent is a tough job. You work; you shed blood and tears just so you can give you children a better future. Somehow in this process, you kind of ignore the fact that your children also needs to have their own life. You should allow them to have this, even just a tiny bit. I’m not saying you forget about your children and send them somewhere they can live their life. My point is that, your children is not you, they might come from you, you may be the one who created them, but ultimately they are a different human, a different person from who you are. So, do not treat them like yourself, do not expect them to continue what you’ve started because your children need to start something on their own and finish it if they can. It is not really your children’s fault why your life is the way it is, it is your choices, you should be the one who should carry it not them.

Second, if one of them gets pregnant do not throw them out of the house. Do not even judge them. They are human and it is OUR (yes, including you) nature to sometimes make crappy decisions. Nevertheless, having a child is a gift to her and you should be happy for her carrying a baby. It is not like you will die if she gets pregnant and the world won’t end just because she is conceiving a baby. After she gives birth she can always go back where she was before getting pregnant, she can always start again, go to school again, continue what she has started and with this my dear parent, you should support her not kick her down. This is one of the hardest things to do and you should be proud of her, if she doesn’t commit suicide of course.

No one really knows the real pain and suffering of getting pregnant and all people around you thinks badly about it. None of you has the idea of the torment a woman undergoes because of depression, pressure and unending stress. Being pregnant and not have a husband is just like having the sky and earth punch you a thousand times. Heck, I think that is much better. The pain of people judging you, the torture of people condemning you and the sorrow of all the people you love and trust leave you behind; that is HELL on EARTH, dying would be so much better. This is why women commit abortion. I guess there more reasons why women perpetrate abortion but generally and 80% of the time, this is the reason for killing a poor baby. And the real murderers are those who did what I mentioned above.

Are you one of them? I guess Now you know.

I really wish I can see the day wherein having a baby is treated with so much love and celebration whether or not the girl is married or unmarried, whether or not, the girl is a working or not and whether or not the girl is of age or not. I hope to see the day wherein people are intellectual enough to see pass through the damn norms of society and focus more on the real important thing; the baby and the woman carrying it.

Christmas is a time when you get homesick - even when you're home. ~Carol Nelson

When I was just a kid, I always anticipate the arrival of the Christmas season because for me it is the best time of the year.

 I really don’t know but back then, when it’s Christmas, whenever I look up into an adult’s face, everyone I see is smiling and every house I see is beautiful even if they only have one Christmas lantern hanging on their window. I also think Christmas trees are magical trees that my family and I have to build out of plastic cellophane. Yes, our Christmas tree back then was a cut-out branch from a tree and we put white plastic cellophane so that it will have shiny leaves and then we put on the best Christmas lights ever and it magically transforms into this beautiful Christmas tree. From that moment on, I know I’m going to have the best Christmas in my life and I thought every Christmas would be as great as the last one. I was wrong.

 Somehow, I don’t when but every time I see Christmas lights or hear Christmas carols being sang part of me is jumping for joy but another part of me is tremendously scared. I know I said I will forget everything bad that happened in the past and sayonara to that but I just can’t help it, it’s kind of a reflex thing that prepares me to what I will encounter this Christmas may it be good or bad.

 But you know what, even if half of me is scared that Christmas is coming, the happy part of me somehow tells me that this Christmas is different from the last Christmas because it brings with it hope that maybe somehow I can get back the Happiness I felt every Christmas when I was young.

As I started reminiscing all that happened to me in the past what I remember the most are my happy times and though I can still remember all my sad memories it doesn’t really hurt anymore, it even made me grateful for if I wasn’t hurt, if I didn’t experience those terrible experiences, I wouldn’t be like this. What’s amazing about it is, when you look back in the past and you see those good and bad memories side by side. The sad memories can’t really hurt you anymore and surprisingly the beautiful memories have the ability to always make you smile and even make you laugh whenever you remember about them, and that my friends is the most important of all.

Some people might not believe me on this, but please trust me when I say “No matter how painful it is today, it will always get better”. At first, I hate looking in the past, I remembering those times when I was bullied for many painful school years. When my family went into financial difficulties and eventually to bankruptcy, when we found out my father is cheating, those when my heart got shattered into a million times, when I was betrayed by my best friend. I despised remembering those times, but eventually I reached a point in my life; no matter how long it took me, that when I remember those stuff I realized their the ones that lead me to finding new trustworthy friends, I got better in school because I want to prove to them they can’t shake me, my father as well as everyone in our family realized our mistakes and now we’ve gotten relatively closer. Our family might not be living the luxury we once have but we are so much happier than we are before. And most of all, I’ve changed for the better.

Don’t get me wrong it really took a while for me to realize everything but once a person reaches this stage of realization it makes you feel everything, the tears, the smiles, the frowns and even the laughter is all worth it. It’s like at first, your watching an artist painting and you can’t picture it out and then you immediately think it’s a piece of crap because you can’t understand it. However, when the artist is finish and you are able to see a masterpiece come out in the crap you saw before, you start to understand the reason for everything and then you get satisfied.

So now, I am going to say farewell to everything, I want to let go of my grudges, my doubts and my regrets because I understand my past now. I understand that the pains I had were nothing compared to the fun I experienced and without the pains, I wouldn’t have recognize happiness even if its staring right in front of me.

Sayonara to my bad experiences. I understand you now and I want to start another chapter in my life and wait for another masterpiece yet to be unfold in my life.

Enma Ai and Sentaro

In a village hidden by the mountains and protected by the trees, a girl is desperately fighting for her life because of a promise a foolish boy gave her. Through his oath, she continued to live in spite of the cruel fate she had befallen. She continued to hope despite the darkness around her, that the foolish boy is there waiting for her in the lights as she dreadfully struggles from the murky currents of shadows and silence.

This girl whose hair is as black as the emptiness she felt; never for once complained the kind of life she got. Robbed of her childhood, separated from the warmth and love of her beloved parents, sentenced to being a sacrificed and left to die by the very own people in her village. Through all this, she never asked why of all the seven-year-old girls in her village she was the one chosen to be the seven-year-old child sacrificed.

At a very young age, she already experienced the harsh truth of the pitiless game called life. She was left alone in the night as she was being cradled to sleep by the sound of the passing wind and rustle of the dancing trees while she slowly surrendered to the sweet nectar of death. Her tears fell gently in the ground as hope began to vanish in the distance.

However, as she was already preparing herself to welcome the grim reaper, a soft familiar whisper echoed in the void she was imprisoned.

“Ai-chan, I brought food for you”.

These were the words of a foolish boy who became her seraph in the moments she was about to see the angel of death. In the empty space she was in, he became his flare of last hope as she noticed the luminosity of the bright full moon vanquished the darkness in her eyes.

The boy who has an auburn colored hair and eyes as beautiful as the moon reached out a bag to her, inside the tightly wrapped loincloth different kind of food behold Enma Ai’s sight. The girl who is supposed to be left alone without food and water, this girl who is supposed to die with no one beside her under the trees; was being rescued by an imprudent boy who dared to violate any law as long as he can fulfill his uttered pledge.

“Setarou, you shouldn’t have come here,” Enma said with tears falling in her eyes as she gazed at the smiling face of her saviour

“I promised didn’t I? I will never let anyone harm you Ai-chan”

This were the exact words of promise this lonely girl took hold. This few words harmless as it may sound became her vigour to fight each day alone in the woods for seven years, to carry on living as she optimistically waits the next day Sentaro would come and bring her not only food her parents prepared for her but happiness beyond compare. She would not mind the state she is in as long as she can see Sentaro and be with him even for a few stolen moments.

Nonetheless, there is no such thing as a happily ever after in her world. The night she feared for; the night she dreaded the most finally came. The villagers marched to her sanctuary; possessed by their anger, suffering and the their twisted belief that their Gods abandoned them for the sustained life of Enma Ai, the betrayal of her parents for sending her food and the insubordination of Sentaro for helping Enma. They ultimately came to put justice into their dirty hands.

She desperately cried for help as she was being drowned in the river and water entered her mouth and her nose. What made matters worse is that she witnessed her beloved Sentaro being pounded by the villagers themselves.

After the horrid moment of endless pain, her long flawless raven colored hair was pulled as she was being dragged to the Seven Children Temple. The shrine built to remember those helpless seven-year-old girls who was sacrificed and were left to die just like her.

There she saw her mother and father for the first time after seven years, a white cloth was wrap around their eyes so they couldn’t see. Their hands were tied on their back so they couldn’t reach for anything and both of them were kneeling at door of the shrine. That was the last horrid sight she saw as she too was tied just like her parents and force to kneel beside them. She heard her mother cry and her father begged for the life of his wife and daughter.

Suddenly, a loud banging sound was heard and one by one, she could not hear the cry of her parents anymore until she felt a hard striking pain on her head as a shovel was hammered into her face. That is when she fell again to the ground and everything became quiet.

When finally the hard pain subsided, she felt droplets of water falling from above, rain perhaps, no its not, the loin cloth wrapped around her eyes slowly fell to her face as she saw Setarou’s tears drop towards her as he was burying her and her family under the ground.

“Stop Setarou! Please!” she desperately yelled as she felt death slowly embracing her.

“You promised Sentaro! Please Stop! Please…” she cried again hoping Sentaro would remember his promised to her, the promised she had taken good care of throughout her life.

Then rocks of different sizes, shovels of muddy soil as brown as Setarou’s eyes fell to her face as she is being buried alive by the very person who saved her, took care of her and promised to protect her, the very person she loved the most.

“Curse you all!” those were her last words as slowly yet painfully she watched as the darkness envelope her and the radiance from the full moon vanished in the distance. She waited for everything to be silenced before she closed her eyes wet with blood as she finally give in to death not alone but surrounded with rocks, sand and pebbles as well as the lifeless bodies of her parents in the grave her very own neighbors dug for them.

There her hatred grew more than ever as  she slowly let go of the broken promise she treasured very much while being  drowned in the murky waters of death as she lay lifeless in the grave she was being buried alive by Sentaro himself. The person who promised her that he no harm would befall to her while his around.

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The much awaited Code Geass Season 3

To everyone who are Code Geass fans, this is a sure blast for all of us because after months and days of painful wait for the making of another Code Geass season the Sunrise Anime Studio finally lit the green light for the Code Geass Season 3 Project! More information will be announced from their website soon.

The title for the much awaited season 3 would be: Code Geass: Shikkoku no Renya (Code Geass: Jet-Black Renya or Code Geass: Renya of the Blackness) which is centered around a 17-year old boy named Renya witch a mechanical left arm and shuriken stars as his weapon of choice. Renya will meet C.C. and then eventually a character with a resemblance of Lelouch will arrive with intentions yet to be discovered.

Personally I am very thrilled about this!!

Making Life Interesting ala Haruhi Suzumiya

Loneliness is something that has spread all over the world today. We might not usually notice it but it doesn’t mean it is not present around us. Heck, we don’t really know the effects of loneliness when it has reach its terminal stage already. However, there are always ways to fight loneliness, it is never incurable.

1. Avoid Thinking Sad Thoughts- I know it’s hard to understand but it’s like this, the more you think of bad stuff, the more you will feel bad. Manage your thoughts and focus everything to the things that makes you happy. It is better to watch comedies than spend your time crying over listening to sad music. If you’ve just broken up with your lover, it is better to spend your time with your friends being happy rather than locking yourself up in your room feeling sorry for yourself. Remember, you have only yourself to rely on!

2. Do the Things you want for Yourself- if you’re the girl who have not receive flowers yet or you just want or need someone to send you inspiring messages in your cellphone, then go ahead and send them to yourself. You really can’t call it insanity if it makes you feel better then why not! Try to list all the things you want to do and one by one do them. Stop crying and do something for a change. And don’t ever try to think of the person that hurt you! Pull your pants up, roll your sleeves and focus your mind to beautiful things, your friends perhaps, your mother, your siblings whom you haven’t had time to play with, your pets who long for you. Share yourself to the people who truly need you.

3. Travel to a new Place- don’t be fooled by what I said, by a new place I mean somewhere you have neglected to see the beauty of. It can be your back yard whom you’re too busy to appreciate the flowers blooming or the leaves falling from the trees. Breathe some fresh air, see people and for once think of the world and its wonders. Don’t think of those petty stuff that will let you down. Spread your wings and gaze at the clouds. They are beautiful aren’t they? By then, you will realize you’re not alone. Even if you lock yourself up in your room the whole day feeling all lonely and depressed, you’ll be surprise to realize your not, when you spot a cockroach crawling in your bed or a mosquito trying to steal your blood. Wherever you will go, you will never be alone. This is a fact! So stop saying your alone because no matter how much you’ll think about it, you’ll never be on your own

4. Eating Sweets is a Good Idea- actually, I think everyone knows already that chocolates has some chemicals in it that releases endorphins in our body right, and that will make us feel better. But really, you’ll also feel so much better if you can just get hold of those sweets. Ice creams, chocolates, candies, gummy bears, gummy worms, bubble gum, lollipops and oh so many many more. Their sweet tastes have enough strength to pull anyone out of misery and drag us to cloud nine, well even for awhile. Forget those calories and fats, if you want you can run around your neighborhood after though.

5. Shake your booty in Dancing– after you have eaten all those sweets, try to dance. Release your sadness on a hip beat that you like and just let go of yourself. Dance anywhere you like, alone or with some people, as long as you can move that body of yours it is fine. Dance like you haven’t dance before, dance like it is your last, dance like no one is watching and dance till your dizzy. Just dance, even if you don’t know how, even if you’re a bad dancer, even if it is your first time. Set your body free and your soul will follow.

6. Laugh- be happy, enjoy everything even if your alone, you can always watch comedies or go out with your friends, I know this is bad but if you need to slightly drink some beer go ahead, just laugh. It will make you feel better; it will not only make you happy inside and out it will unlock your trapped soul. It will lighten your burden and it is a good way to heal yourself. Even if you know your hurt, when you laugh specially if you share it with your close friends, it will untie that knot of despair in your heart and then you can breathe again. As well as when you laugh, you will realize how good it is to live and then you will think of not giving up.

7. Cry your heart out and Let go of the Pain- go ahead cry and cry and then do some more crying in front of your friends or with your mother, heck I don’t care who or what just let go of that pain, and the only way you can do that is share it. Share it with some pen and paper and then burn or share it in your diary or talk about it someone you really trust. Don’t worry if you have to act all vulnerable, you need it. Once it is out, it can never go back again. If ever it does, you don’t have to worry because by then you’ll be immune to it, and it can never pull you down for you have anchored yourself already.

8. Sleep- A good sleep is always better. After all that crying and dancing give your body a break and doze off for awhile. Bite your pillow before going to sleep and say to it “take my loneliness and lock them inside your fluffy body”. Then go ahead and sleep. When you finally wake up you’ll feel much better. And then, your ready to face anything that comes in your way.

9. Read Inspiring Stories- instead of wasting your time reading stories of lovers breaking up, stories of people dying or watching movies of the world ending. Abolish those nonsense things and read stories that will inspire you. Fill your life with inspiring thoughts. Read about people overcoming tragedy or coping up with a loss, if they have done it then there is no reason for you not to achieve what they have overcome. At this point of your life, it pays well to think positively, even if those negative thoughts still attacks you, fight them back with good thoughts or support yourself with uplifting quotes. In this moment of your life, think yourself as someone still learning to ride a bike, you need those training wheels in order for you to finally ride the bike on your own. Those training wheels are there to support you and they are your positive thoughts. The bike here is your loneliness. Once you can control your loneliness already those positive thoughts will always be there to be your foundation. Make them sturdy so that no matter how many earthquakes will pass, its intensity will hardly affect you.

10. Stay Strong- even if you think your weak, be strong. Make yourself believe that your strong and I’m sure you will survive. Never let mundane things direct you, rise up and manage them. Loneliness is a part of living, it is not here to put us on a test, to judge our strength or even drag us to hell. Loneliness, sadness and sorrow exist because it allows us to grow. It a key ingredient for us to live our lives, so don’t treat as an enemy you have to extinguish, welcome it and make it your friend. Don’t forget that victory is always compose of 2 steps backward and 3 steps forward.

Four hundred years had already passed and the world has already changed yet her vengeful heart never even once stopped crying for revenge, it might have already calmed down but its tears never seized flowing from its veins.

This is the story of Enma Ai before she was turned into Hell Girl. The once beautiful young innocent girl is now at the fore front of ferrying souls into the depths of Hell.

But even if she already buried the souls of those who sentenced her to death into the core of the underworld, her howl for vengeance still echoed inside her until she secured that everyone of those who caused her pain and robbed her of her very own life is ferried into hell.

However, this girl of whom was made immortal by the Hell God and was able to linger here in on Earth for more than four hundred years never did once saw in her very own eyes the true form of forgiveness. She might have known its shadows but she was unable to see what is it was like to forgive.

After her emotions took over her and she was able to break free from the grave her own villagers made for her in the foot of the temple; she didn’t waste time in burning down each house that cause her to suffer. She didn’t hesitate in obliterating all the villagers that had forsaken her. As the moon shines at the empty sky, she danced in insanity as each house got caught in her flames, imprisoning those sleeping inside it, making their home their own grave as well. It may sound ironic but the girl they just buried alive in the grave they dug themselves is now the one burning them in their own grave conjured by her own flames.

Nevertheless, even if she was at the forefront of avenging suffering souls and revenge for her is all that matters, when the light of forgiveness finally made its apparition to her, she truly understood it even at first glimpse. She immediately realized the hidden beauty of forgiveness compared to the instant comforts of revenge.

The girl who was beaten down and killed by the people who were supposed to support her and protect her as one of their kind,  forgave them at the moment she knew what is forgiveness. It might have taken her hundreds of years to see it personally and fully understand it but no one can blame her poor soul for she never got the chance to know about it, for all she knew then is to inflict as much pain as those that cause her great sorrow.

But through it all, when she saw what is was like to forgive, she let go of everything that burdened her and for once she soared along with petals of the cherry blossom. She realized that she is trying to escape a prison cell where the door was never locked. She made her own self suffer in the thought of escape in the prison she, herself made. She exhausted everything she had looking for a way to get out when door was never closed in the first place.

This my friends, are the truth of forgiveness and revenge. When we seek someone to suffer as much as we did, we unknowingly and painstakingly cut our own wings with our bare hands in the thought that we could never fly again. Revenge will always be sweet but it will always have its bitter side of which will last much longer than the sweetness it promised.

Forgiveness on the other hand, is like climbing a mountain. Getting to the top requires sweat and determination yet the splendor and fortune it offers is something that will last for all eternity. The price we get when we forgive far exceeds the capital we use to achieve it.

Those who plot the destruction of others often perish in the attempt: Thomas Moore

all by myself

Usually when people encounter the word introvert the first thing that sinks into their minds are the thoughts of the person being shy, timid and loner. However, what they’re seeing are only the outer shell of an introvert person. If people just try to research what the word introvert truly means they will notice that in psychology it means “a person characterized by concern primarily with his or her own thoughts and feelings”. In truth, an introvert is not someone who is weak, frail or shy; an introvert is just a kind of person who values  his or her own thoughts more than what other people thinks. Isn’t that sometimes what we should do?

Nowadays, being an introveris really hard, people try to look down on you, other people thinks that because your not popular they can just push you around and because you don’t talk much it means you are a coward.

In reality, introverts think a lot and if given the chance they can exhaust you of all the ideas they have, of all the facts they store in their heads and all the amazing ideas they can generate. Actually, according to psychology.suite101.com, introverts are not afraid of exposing what they think, they are just cautious about revealing their thoughts. They don’t really hesitate to speak out or take action for themselves but they tend to think it through first. Introverts are very private people; they tend to process their feelings, information, and remarks internally. Introverts can also be social but they don’t reveal much about themselves to other people than what extraverts do.

Why Introverts prefer to be alone?

Though we all know introverts love to be alone because they are very private people, there is also another reason why introverts prefer seclusion rather than inclusion. It is because Introverts gather their energy in solitude. After a party or a social event, though introverts might really have fun in it, at the end of the day, it exhausts them a lot, being in a crowded place just drains their energy big time and the only way to get it back is to do things in private. I think it is safe to say that privacy is something introverts can’t live without. If all people need some privacy, introverts really need all the private time they got. Though sometimes, they still go to parties and go out with their friends, they only do it because they feel obliged about it.

Why introverts don’t talk much?

As what I said above they don’t like to reveal much about themselves and talking to people is also a means of revealing yourself to them (one way or another). Nonetheless, introverts don’t talk a lot also because they usually are picky of the topics they want to talk about. They typically choose those topics they know they have something to say, or those they are interested in or those topics they think is significant to talk about. If given a choice sometimes, introverts would just sit and listen rather than talk because for them it is meaningful to learn about things than to argue about trivial stuff.

Is it hard to date an Introvert?

I won’t call it hard but compared to dating an extravert it might take more time. An extrovert loves to be around people and they don’t have problems in trusting people. It’s a different story when it comes to an introvert. Most introverts have problems when it comes to socializing as well as trusting people and it might also take some time before an introvert starts to open up to someone he or she is only starting to get to know.

Answer true or false to the following questions:

1. I like to have long, uninterrupted periods to work on projects, rather than small chunks.

2. I sometimes rehearse things before speaking, occasionally writing notes to myself.

3. I like to listen more than talk.

4. People sometimes think I’m quiet, mysterious, aloof or calm.

5. I usually need to think before I respond or speak.

6. I like to share special occasions with just one or two people, rather than have a big celebration.

7. I tend to notice details many people don’t see.

8. If two people have just had an argument, I feel the tension in the air.

9. If I say I’ll do something, I almost always do it.

10. I feel anxious if I have a deadline or pressure.

11. I can zone out if too much is going on.

12. I like to watch an activity for awhile before joining in.

13. I form lasting relationships.

14. I don’t like to interrupt others; I don’t like to be interrupted.

15. When I take in lots of information, it takes me awhile to sort it out.

16. I don’t like overstimulating environments.

17. I sometimes have strong reactions to smells, tastes, foods, weather, and noise.

18. I am creative and/or imaginative.

19. I feel drained after social situations, even when I enjoy myself.

20. I prefer to be introduced rather than having to introduce others.

21. I often feel uncomfortable in new surroundings.

22. I can become grouchy if I’m around people or activities for too long.

23. I often dread returning phone calls.

24. I like people to come to my home, but I don’t like them to stay a long time.

25. I find my mind sometimes goes blank when I meet people or when I am asked to speak unexpectedly.

26. I talk slowly or have gaps in my words, especially if I’m tired or if I’m trying to think and speak at once.

27. I don’t’ think of casual friends as acquaintances.

28. I feel as if I can’t show other people my ideas until they’re fully formulated.

29. Other people may surprise me by thinking I’m smarter than I am.

Finding the answer to this test for introverts is easy: simply add up your “true” responses.

Scoring:

20-29 “true” – responses means you’re a true introvert! (That’s me!). “Only deep relationships measure up as friendships and you use them to relax. You need to mentally rest throughout the day, even after enjoyable activities. Because you will draw a blank under pressure, prepare for meetings, talks, and even parties beforehand. Accept your nature and learn to politely fend off energy-draining people.”

10-19 “true” – responses means you’re both introverted and extroverted. “You sometimes feel torn between the desire to dance in the streets and walk alone on the beach. Notice this, so you can keep your energy consistent. You judge yourself through your thoughts and feelings, and through others, leaving you with a broad view that is sometimes difficult to straddle.”

1-9 “true” – responses means you’re an extrovert. “You relish variety, have lots of ‘close, personal’ friends and will chat with complete strangers. Your stimulation is all external, so you talk, think, and act quickly. As you reach midlife, however, you may need to take a break from the high life to reflect, even though it goes against your nature.”

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